Or even Worse a Casual Buisness Man

Jauary is kicking off with bang! Doors are opening....ok so more like windows! haha But im thankful im very thankful!
Hope Everyine had a great new years and Christams!

Well welcome to 2009. A new year for new mistakes (at least i wont repeat the old ones). I droped the band a while ago, probably inapropriate seeing as we just finished the recording the demo, the guys who were quite obviously a little confused are still asking me to play a show on the eighth. I respect and admire there persistance, but i really didnt believe in the final product. So its something i feel that had to happen.
This year i plan to focus more on my career and schooling some more sacrifices need to take place but i feel comfortable in the fact the final result will be worth any bumps on the road on the way there.

Alot of old "friends" have turned back into my life again. As they say history repeats its self. Its my job to handle things differently and not place my self in the same situations i always have before. Which thus far has been working out rather well for me.

I just got back form seeing the movie Valkyre With Tom Cruise. If your into history i suggest you give it a watch it was 90-95% accurate. I guess im just rambling now.

Should sleep early day tommorrow.

I could really use some excitement. I have been at home for three days! I dont go back to work until the fifth of January im starting to get cabin fever. Any ideas on how to pass the time?

Change. Faster than lightning there it is, change.
Time waits for no one.
Remember that.

My ex girlfried for a few years ago asked me out again.....she not the only one either. I hate that type of confortation, it's so uncomfortable i think everyone has been rejected before. I hate to be the cause. Why may you ask?

To mostly likely have mine ripped out by another girl.....Should be Fun. ;)

I just picked up A dillenger escape plan cd i din't have. "ire works" F*cking great! I also got the nine inch nails DVD beside you in time. Also F*CKING GREAT!

Something about his songs that really make me examine life.

After work today i went to sign up to be an extra in a Movie that they are shooting in Dunnville. Something based on Emilia Airheart. Starring Richard Gere and Hillary Swank. I find out by friday if i was chosen. Should be cool.


Side Project now in motion. Just need a Bitch'n Name. I was thinking something like Sir Valiant, Thanitos Theory, The AfterMAth......I don't know what'cha u think?

Work has felt off since trish left. I don't know why i can't really explain it, i guess i just miss her alot, she made it more tollerable. Today was an alright day though. ber esides the fact that with all these people leaving our getting fired mike and i are getting stuck with a larger work load. That's ok. I really don't mind the work. Despite the fact that somedays it is still hard to get motivated.
I did my own taxes this year and finally got the letter form the governemnt saying yes i do owe you money, but atleast i did it right so i am kinda proud of myself, it was alot easier then i was lead to believe and hell i saved my self the money form having to pay someone to do it for me.
The associates show wen to over well i was really quite impressed, we got a lot of laughs and some of our sketches are now available on funnyourdie.com just search the assocaites of comedy and you will find them if interested. they still amke me laugh and i was in some of them, or worked on some of them at least.
The band is still plugging away recording went out the window though cause mike moved into a apt. So now we are going to have to pay for a recording. Which is ok, and the added time to save some cash means we can finish the new songs we are working on and play a few shows too see which ones are the strongest, as long as Grim makes it on im happy. I think im going to put on the directors hat and attempt to shoot a video for the one of our songs once the recording is done, i printed off a punch of story board shets to start visualizing my ideas. There are bonuses to working ata production company!

I am Robots.

I have spent the last four days working at the Food and Drink Festival In hamilton, I was running sound for bands and light for the bands and helping out with various cooking demonstations from, buissnessess all around the hamilton area. It was Alot of fun, and i have to give Jay, Lori and Shannon soeme massive props for organising such a great event, the plavce was packed. I tried a bunch of exotic foods and some beers that i have never had before, I had this one cream ale that was fucking amazing but i really can't remember what the company name was. Made some cash on the side by selling cd's for Grenville, and my boss gave me some extra coin to just be cause aswell. I must be doing something right.
Yestarday I recieved a message from a close friend.....It ment alot.

we were suppose to play a show on saturday at the Casbah, but unfourtunetly i couldn't make it do to work, so the band decided to play an instrumental show, lucky for me though non of the other bads showed up for the gig so it didn't happen, so i still got to make some coin and never missed out on anything. My back breaks on my new car went again, this is ridiculous so sunday was spent fixing them, and some of this morning. But thankfully all is well. Next weekend i Bleieve we are going to start recording, so im looking forward to that. Then once completed i can finally send Vikki her package! Sorry it's taking so long!

Las t but not least some good news! MINUS THE BEAR AT THE OPRAH HOUSE APRIL 1st! I am SO STOKED!

I feel as though i have been spending to much time in my head latley, doubting, concentrating on the "what ifs" but thankfully, music was there to boost my spirits. So Thank you Trent, for your words of wisdom.

I worked my ass off toady, but i accomplished quite alot. One more day then Milksop Takes the stage once again, i am pretty stoked if alll of those who say they will come do show up it should be a good night. More snow on friday though, it sucks.

I showed up to practice early no one was there so i just chilled out for a little while. Phil, Pete and Alex came shortly after and we began to run through the set. Dan However was MIA and showed up late, we were beginning to get a little concerned. About half through the set Crisis ensued. Phil's Amp SHIT'S OUT!
Now we are up shit creek with out a paddlde all the music stores are closed and we have an hour and half to figure something out. Luckily Pete's dad bailed us out and let PHIL use his amp. Pete and pHil left to go pick it up while Dan Alex and I took care of some beer that need to be "attended to." 30 minutes later we get a phone call form pete and phil......"Dude we got in a car accident we are fucked!" once he started laughing i realized he was being a dick! But fuck i was worried.
We show up at seven for sound check and unload, and to our surprise we went from being the first band to the last band of the night. The room slow begins to pulse with life over the next half hour or so. We were told we could use someone else's drums, but when we got there there was no kit, so we were forced to travel back and grab the kit.
All the bands were good in their own right, but god damn we stood out like a soar thumb. They were more akron family, eastcoast, hippie music, and well we are grunge rockers with a twist of lime. I wasn't nervous, i wasn't anxious i was ready, Milksop took the stage and rocked out. The show was taped by a friend of mine and we should have dvd Copies available soon.
We were invited back to play again, so we must have done something right, we were given the choice of two dages March 8th with The band "HeyClown" who i went to high school with (and really rock though they dispanded and then reformed and i hear thte are a little more mellow now, but im sure the still have the edge.) and St.Patricks Day i have no idea who else is on the bill for that one.
After the Show we went to Dan's house for an after party....Fuck....we were all drunk. We started playing our tunes at like 4:00am with no consideration for the neighbors, it must have been fairly quiet because the cops never came, met some new people, had some good times and say some really nice things......Ahem...... I slept on the floor on a work out matt with some blankets i left in the car. I really wouldn't call it sleeping though, i guess i have turned into a bit of softey.
Got home around four today and failed to call the insurnace company. Should have done that. They cancelled my insurnce causse i missed a payment though i had the money but there was a hold on my check. LAME.
Check out some picks of us @ the Casbah at the Milksop group on face book.

I stayed late at work to finish up some things, i dind't really want ot but i know it will be a benificial to me tommorrow. Currently im debating wether to go out and watch the luner eclipse to night. MIght be fun.

Work went well i suppose. I was hoping again to get enough of my project done so i could invoice for half, but unfourtunetly I was given another last second project to finish. It's ok though at least it shows my initative.
My Phone bill came in the mail today along with my master card bill.....I haven't looked at them yet.....I don't want to.

I Listened to Nine Inch Nails "Le Mer" about 12 times at work alone. The music seemed to fit how i was feeling. Though i don't believe i could describe it in words.

Last night we had a band practice and ran over our set for the Casbah this coming sunday. It went rather well. We orderd some chinese it was pretty damn tastey. Afterwards we went oto buddies a for a few drinks and then to the doors. Katherine showed up to meet us there it was a good time. We headed to petes after the bar closed and partied some more. Then watched SuperBad. That is one hilarious movie.

I stayed late after work, partially to wait for my check, but mostly becasue i wasnted to talk to my boss. He has been feeling under weather lately. Upon arrving home, i had a wounderful ham dinner, and then proceded to write and organise some band affairs.

If you haven't been on it already please check out www.myspace.com/milksoprock

It's funny how everyhting can change in a matter of seconds, one minute your just hanging out at a friends playing some halo, the next your cyring over the loss of a loved one. A complete change of emotion in a matter of seconds.... life is precious, don't waste it.

Im having a moral quandrey. I met this girl she's amazing, we have a lot in common and she is a uge odd ball, but she has a boyfriend (who is in vancouver) she is coming on quiet strong what should i do? I don't want to break anyone up.

When it's to good to be true it probably is that's my life lesson for the day. I got a text message from a wrong number, we started talking she seemed cool. From the same town liked the same things couldn't get better right? your right! only worse. I show up and wait, then i wait and then i wait some more. She's not soming i mutter to myself. A few tables over I see this blonde. "excuse me" i say quite quietly do to my nervousness. "is your name Ann Marie?" "No" she says with a smile, "im Nicole"

"sorry" and I proceed to sit back down and wait. Well if by some far off chance you read this I just want to say "FUCK YOU" thanks for screwing with' me.

I knew It from the start, this was going to be the exact same as last year. It was nice to see all my friends gathered in place and in high spirts. But something just felt like it was missing, i couldn't even begin to think of what, but it just didn't feel .... right. I played this game called tiddley drinks, the object being to flick a plastic coin on the targets, each contianing a message like, "you drink", or "choose drinker", after a few rounds of that i was feeling non the less "pretty good". The night continued, more people came more left, until the overall tone began to mellow, my eyes became heavy, and my interest in the situation leaked out from me like siv.

Today i stayed in bed, i couldn't be bothered to get up, at around five my neighbor, who had been leaving messages on my machine all day got a hold of me to go and jam with him and his brother. It was good, things sounded on the ball and some progress was made. It came time to leave however and i was telling him how i wanted to go back to school. He looked in my face and laughed. I promptly left.

Well, with any luck ill get my car tommorow, i guess that's a positive for a new years start, I never made a resolution, they just seem silly. I mean why wait all year just promise you will change something, start the moment you think about it. Just seems a little more logical don't ya think.


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE, I HOPE THAT IT BRINGS YOU ALL NOTHING BUT GOOD FORTUNE

Thanks for the christmas cards Vikki, you could rock all the socks off a centipeade! Boo-yeah!